One sweet day

This is an old video, old song old singer…

I found a mariah carey cd at hoem and I was listening to this song and thinking abt something that has always let me down…death. Not my own death, understand that I dont wanna die. But beloved people´s death.

As some might know I had a hard time getting over my grandma´s death. She had cancer and passed away last year. She was a an amazing woman, she has never worked so it is not work success that I am talking about, but grandma used to be sweet and tried to be the best mom and grandma ever, she managed to do so. She had a terrible husband who would always be mean to her and she decided to divorce him when she was 70 years old. My grandma had an awesome view of the future, she was alwaays there, beside me, no matter what I did.

I remember when I had difficult days she supported me and she kept saying I was a good person and I deserved  to be happy. She may have thought I shouldn’t have done that but the only thing she did was to support me and say everything would end well. I just needed to be patient.

I still believe I will call her any time of the day or the night and she will answer the phone with her portuguese accent “pronto”. How much I miss her, I wish I had another chance to hold her and keep my feet warm between her legs as she used to do. The best grandmother in the world I just wish I could have her in my arms once more and tell her everything that is going on in my life. Why did she die? Why didn’t God allow her to see my daughter growing up as a beautiful woman that she will be? Why didn’t my daughter have the chance to  be held by her as I did? Why can’t I have my grandmother forever telling me I am right and I have to be happy? My grandmother was a great love in my life, I miss her so much, I have to see her again. The last time I hugged and talked to her was in my dreams, she told me to move on, to stop crying that I had cried enough. She gave me a hug and I dont remember the rest of the dream. When I woke up I was feeling much better, I had the feeling of touching her skin again…

Anyway, this post wasnt meant to be sad but it was meant to ask your opinion on this death stuff. How much does it scare you? What happens when we die?  Will we see our beloved ones again?

Sorry I never told you

All I wanted to say

And now it’s too late to hold you

‘Cause you’ve flown away, so far away

Never had I imagined

living without your smile

Feeling and knowing you hear me

It keeps me alive, alive

And I know you’re shining down on me from heaven

Like so many friends we’ve lost along the way

And I know eventually we’ll be together (Together)

One sweet day (And all that I know and I’ll wait patiently to see you in Heaven)

Darlin’, I never showed you (No, no, no, no, no, no) {I never showed you}

Assumed you’d always be there (mariah: always be there,) no,no, {I thought you’d always be there}

and I took your presence for granted

But I always cared (But I always cared) and I miss the love we shared

And I know you’re shining down on me from heaven

Like so many friends we’ve lost along the way (Lost along the way)

And I know eventually we’ll be together (I know, I know)

One sweet day (And all thatI know is I’ll wait patiently to see you in Heaven)

Although the sun will never shine the same

I’ll always look to a brighter day

Yeah, yeah

Lord, I know when I lay me down to sleep

You will always listen as I pray

And I know you’re shining down on me from heaven

Like so many friends we’ve lost along the way (Like so many)

And I know eventually we’ll be together (Yes, I know, I know we’ll be together)

One sweet day

And I know you’re shining down on me from heaven (I’ll see you eventually)

Like so many friends we’ve lost along the way (I know you’re lookin’ for a heaven)

And I know eventually we’ll be together(I know, I know)

One sweet day (One sweet day, whoa…)

patiently to see you in Heaven

Sorry I never told you

All I wanted to say

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3 Responses to One sweet day

  1. Cris says:

    Thank you Pat,

    I’m felling it too.You let me so happy with your words.It’s a great pleasure to see the improving
    of me and my friends.Did you remember the last class?
    All of us were talking a lot,in english,of course.By
    the way, you’re the only responsible for it,my dear
    teacher.Thank you so much.

    Cris.

  2. patcarneiro says:

    Cris,
    I try never to think or I always avoid thinking 🙂
    I feel I am not prepared to go through it.
    in heaven (not in the heaven)

    Nice writing, you are getting better, much better everyday, I am very proud of you
    LOve,
    Pat

  3. Cris says:

    Pat,

    First of all,I want to say your day’s stuff is a very complex thing,therefore,I have to confess that
    I try to never think about death, because I have a lot of fear of this.I know that I need to change my way to see it,but I don’t.
    I fell I’m not prepair to support it,not my own
    death, but mainly for my beloved ones.
    I don’t know what happens when we die but in my opinion, oneday we will see our beloved ones again in
    the heaven or maybe not.I’m not so sure.

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